I'm torn between passion and priority,
it's not even funny anymore.
In fact, it's causing me a lot of stress.
Really, I don't know where I'm heading to.
I'm so scared, because I'm not stressed about my academics.
I don't know why I'm making it sound as if I have to make a decision now,
it's not as if I'm doing so well academically,
that both SAJC and ACJC wants me.
In fact I'm the one who wants them.

I'm thinking about it a lot, that it's not even funny anymore. It's probably the cause of the mood swings. I don't think I'm coping, and I get frequent thoughts of dropping Biology. But I believe I can still do Biology, by myself or with a tuition teacher. I'm getting worried about Chinese O' Levels, it's in less that 8 weeks. I hope I get a B3, and get it done. Get it off my head. Forget about Chinese for four months before O' Levels and concentrate on my Sciences, and History. 4.6 is actually doing more than 4.7, although they are a triple science class. Pretty much because combined subjects, are actually two subjects with combined marks, and tests less on applications. It's like, I'm taking 10 subjects. And I'm not very happy with my combined subjects, because in each combined subject, I can do well in one, and yet suck in the other. Safe combination, but very tough.

But you know, I believe I can do this. I really do.